Sometimes...

sometimes...

sometimes, we just want to cry

free our soul like a butterfly

efforts turn futile, still we try

but nothing wets the eyes so dry

sometimes, we just want to sit

alone, the highest point we hit

in the cold night not moonlit

burdened thoughts, that we misfit

not so brave to jump and quit

looking upwards we wrap our feet

the dark sky with twinkling stars in it

awestruck ! we listen to our own heartbeat

sometimes, we just wish to feel

the only warm hug that could heal

the pain is too much alone to deal

the only person to whom we reveal

flash, all of a sudden, surreal

clash of egos, eyes see us congeal

tormented heart crashes down, we kneel

its our fate, we must conceal

sometimes, we just lie on our back

under the sky frosty and dark

sometimes, moon the night may lack

but never stars and melodious lark

sometimes, a drowning man

clutches a straw if he can

when weeping in a gloomy cellar

the leaking bit of light brings the hope again

a pen is mightier than a sword

sometimes, heart is pierced by a single word

but love pervades even through fences

sometimes we forget all differences

we laungh till we break into tears

sometimes we face our deepest fears

we climb with every success we score

but sometimes we enjoy our fall even more

True, that we born everyday

but its only sometimes that we truly live !

:-)

A Flower

(Dedicated to the girl whose presence compelled me to go thinking in her absence... this is not a sad poem, just a learning, in fact my turmoils receded after the realization and brought back a smile...... )

Distorted thoughts running in my mind,

I find myself alone sitting on a chair,

though a click can find me a companion,

I made a choice to breathe solitary air,

A different emotion, I see my brain has succumbed to,

no sorrow, no pain, but for a confusion that my day rots,

why am I not thinking about myself, but about a friend so new?

what am I thinking, the thoughts, or the reason for my thoughts?

frustration is overpowering me, my body may soon surrender,

my jittering hands, I may soon lose my control I wonder,

just when I'm about to shout in anxiety, a serendipitous glimpse,

right out of the window, my eyes found me a savior !

Right out of the window, i see a flower,

beautiful on its own, hanging loose on its branch,

dust-covered petals, in a hostile environment,

beautiful on its own, hanging loose on its branch.

Mother Nature pampers its beautiful child,

brings water form the purest corners to give it a shower,

freshly being bathed, dripping drop from its stalk,

all in glitter ready to make love.

vibrant colour, fragrance, that mesmerizing...

potent enough to seduce a nomadic insect !

no unconditional love for feelings don't bind,

both have their own business to mind,

hinting me a mean sex, but foreplay seems interesting,

though the insect cares not but only what its gaining,

it will love the flower till the thirst it will satisfy.

then with no heavy heart, off it will fly

uniting unknowingly the eagerly waiting gametes...

separated by birth, reunited in youth !

so beautifully dressed, i realized the flower was ready for its funeral,

after the union, nowhere will it be seen,

but that is not the end, for it will always be felt,

the undying colour and aroma, the fruit inherits,

to this unconditional love, the fruit forgets not to pay homage,

gives a path for the flower's resurrection, carries its seeds

and again, right out of my window, i'll see a flower,

beautiful on its own, hanging loose on its branch

Nothing ends, nothing begins... all just revolves in a circle !!!

Nindiyaa.... zzzzz! ;-)

(a very short hindi poem that created itself just because it was absent)

naino mein sapne basaati,

ye chup k se palke bhujaati,

karvatonse banti silvatonse ye,

gehre mann mein samaati,

madhoshi mein poori raat ye rukti,

meethe nasheme dhutt ye karti,

gale laganeka fir dil jo karta,

subha ye jaane kahan khojaati,

fir bhi vaadaa ye karke hai jaati,

din jab bhi toote toh ye hai chali aati...

jaane kyun aaj nainose ye khafa hai,

palke abhi bhi khuli ki khuli hain,

fir aaja silvaton ke zariye mere mann mein...

nindiyaa, teri mujhe pyaas hai !

Love making

(A girl's insecurities and yet a prevailing trust over her partner...cravings, intimacy, seduction, love, emotions...)

Girl: Oh baby you are so cute and sweet

The way you caress me, touch my body all over, I just love it

Feels good, hormones release, it paces up my heart beat

And then you come closer to me, you can hear me breathe

And when we’re not together, I’m desperate to meet

But then to my savior, I find there is a tweet

I know it’s you, brings back spirit to my cheeks

Every sec of my life, I live every bit

It’s because the way you are, the way me you treat

And I want to show you my love, coz you deserve it

Kiss you from top to bottom, from head to feet

Still not enough to show it, love you, I’ll greet…

Boy: Baby I love you too

I love everything to me you do

Let’s take a step forward, what I mean you know

My love at the pinnacle, to you let me show

Your lovely face, deep eyes, rosy lips I wanna seal

Though lout I am, still your body wanna feel

The warm hugs and chill lips, my soul they’ll conceal

Oh! Even the thought of it, pumping up my zeal

And tonight, the much waited night so perfect

For those sensuous moments, from dead, I’ll resurrect

So wonderful you are, my expressions need no dialect

Let’s melt into each other, cozy moments, a lifelong effect…

Girl: Everything has your name on it, give some moments to flourish

Baby just assure me to be slow, every moment you’ll cherish

Boy: This is the most important moment, it never will perish

I promise to be gentle, together fulfill our wish

Girl: Oh! Your words, they raise up my temptation

Boy: What are you afraid of? Step forward into seduction

Girl: It’s very delicate, say last time you won’t fleet

Boy: I understand girl… I promise I won’t cheat

Girl: Oh! Baby… you have all of me now, in your life give me a place

Boy: This kiss... the key to my heart, which is your dwelling place

Girl: Baby I love you too much, you’ve always been so nice

Wanna sedate you with my love, your heart I’ll suffice

Boy: Surprising… my pulse beat faster

Thumping… could hear my heart louder

Let me feel the same with you, just come a bit closer

No more we stop ourselves, let our actions now wander

Heart has expropriated; mind’s no more the controller

It’s full of passion, emotions it’ll foster...!

All alone

(when a wave of loneliness hits my shores... when my brain goes numb and my heart just cries...)

No one left to say hi and hello,

I've lost it, my face used to glow,

Shattered completely by a single huge blow,

Crumbled into pieces, stoppage in my blood-flow,

But still I could hear my breath slow,

And then to myself, I whisper low,

Will I survive?I don’t know,

I could hear the f@#king black crow,

Predicting there may be no tomorrow,

No dear one left to grieve in sorrow,

I’ll return the mass, from the Earth, I borrowed.

And my thoughts you don’t follow,

Nothing's personal but I plod u don’t know.

Baby, I'm sorry!

(We sometimes hold on to a person and then we even hurt them, take them for granted, avoid them amid all the disturbance we ourselves are introduced to... This one is dedicated to that special person in my life whom i unknowing hurt a lot)

I said, no more in my life I want u,

Baby, You know me and you know the truth,

It’s an axiom & I need not prove,

Cut my blood vessels & examine the blood that shoots,

Its colour’s so deep to show my love for u,

You love me and I love you,

My best buddy, this is the truth.

Some literature, they were the slip of tongue,

My lexis never meant that way, remember the songs together we sung,

Your cheerful face fills fragrance in my lung,

We’re always in the same boat, the two chipmunks.

I could never support u, but why in dark you kept,

You had no sleep in your eyes, while peacefully I slept,

I would have f@#ked every bastard who saw you with disrespect,

His body full of holes filled with these freaking bullets.

But come on darling it’s never too late,

Let’s change the hex our relation has in its fate,

Our love has a magic to resurrect,

Sometimes closest person we mutilate,

The pain we are suffering, let’s try to mitigate,

Muster the courage and love we’ll accumulate,

Come on, you got to teach me how to drive your car,

It’s only you, who consider me a rap star,                                                                                                    

Let’s heal every wound not to leave any scar,

Let’s dance away the sorrow, always happy together we are.

Juvenile Love ( A Birthday Wish)

Saw her for the first time,

found a very different shine,

Wished she was a friend of mine,

Only if I knew, future was the above line

Afraid always to have a talk,

together sometimes we'd walk

would have never got a shock,

only if i knew, she was eager to befriend, round the clock

now we are the best of friends

with time our friendship does ascend,

nothing's there to pretend,

only do I wish, our friendship sees no END

All this stuf why did I say,

Reason is this perfect day,

A cute doll of purest clay,

Wish you a very Happy Birthday.

What life I'm living !!!

This is a story of a guy, like you and me,

But still there's something unusual to see...

He lives a life full of jerks...

hell, there's no one to perk...

totally under-confident... advance your reading,

As he says,"What life I'm living !!!"

Getting up too early or sometimes too late,

The damn pressure, a routine I fail to slate,

A kinda nemesis for my poor fate,

They call me a nerd with no girl to date.

Got lot to work but I fail to do so,

The huge burdened backlog compelling me to bow low

They say me, hard you study nothing you get though

To experience success you are too slow.

"Boy, any hot babe", they say , "do you know?"

Not my cup of tea, hell! they don't follow,

"you fool, you jackass, you head we'll blow,

why don't you tell me where should I go"...

I cry alone in deteriorating darkness,

promise myself to be much stronger,

just put an end to this scary loneliness,

I wish for someone called my lover.

Who cares for me

who shares my views

who fares me well

in my debts and dues

who makes my existence felt to me

so that I enjoy all the tints and hues...

Its late, Its dusky, night has crawled in,

The dawn awaits to suck my blood for no sin,

Only thing I wish, if you could see,

What it is...just to be me !

Shadow...

We are a different people

We are at different places

Sometimes our souls cripple

We fail to read the faces...

Life is such a colorful bitch

We love the colors though they ditch

Fool our hearts,torn we stitch

Adamant, not to surrender to this witch...

Colours slowly grip us tight

Make us addicted to lovely sight

Then they fade slowly away

Its then late to give a fight.

Colors, don't crumple me down

I love my shadow which is black

It never laughs when i frown

It sees nothing that i lack.

A single ray brings it back

I play with it when pain stacks

In dark it's sight I may lack

As a hope my heart it packs.

Let me be your shadow

Let me have your identity

I'll b dumb but never deaf

I'll follow u wherever u go

I'll play with u when u r low

And someday someone will come to wipe your tears, bring you fun

Your eyes then will cry in joy

You'll be happy... and i'll be the happiest one !:-)

Soulmate !

I want my name called with yours,

I want my residence bloomed by you,

I want our love to be sung by choir,

I want my fantasies with you come true...

I want my children to call you mum,

Enjoy together the happy days and fun,

And when the hard moments and sorrows come,

I want you to hold my hands under the sun...

When over no reasons we have a fight,

All of a sudden I hug you tight,

I want to be awake with you the whole night,

Just want you to be in my sight...

With you, I want to grow old,

And then, in your arms let the greatest truth unfold

And when with no life my body turns cold,

I want my soul, accompanied by yours !